It's going to be truth and raw emotion.
Over the past two months, there has been much debate on topics on Planned Parenthood Scandals.
You have the right wing opinions of the Republican party looking to de-fund the company but are often simply using the story as a political soap box to gain a vote. You have the Left Wing Liberals fanning up lies that Planned Parenthood is the only way to stop breast cancer. If you vote republican , you are only voting for women to be sent back to the kitchen and have no voting rights or valid opinions. Both extreme sides are in an uproar and casting viscous drama via social media.
I typically stay pretty quiet on debated topics. I don't like causing big drama online. But something has been eating me alive the past few weeks an I just feel the need to say something before it hurts me anymore.
A few weeks ago a hashtag started trending that not only made me sick to my stomach it has not stopped causing me pain or wanting me to mourn.
#shoutyourabortion
Men and women, trying to stand firm on the agenda of freedom of choice and in turn celebrating the freedom of abortion. Standing firm on the principal that they have the right to have Sex with who ever they want and are absent of consequence. Adding the thought by saying, " my life matter more" or a "fetus is not a life". Or even worse, the senator our there trying to pass legislation, that Independent life really doesn't start until the age of 2 years old. Thus as parent you have the "Right" to terminate the life of your children up until they are 2 years old, if their needs do not meed the needs of the parents.
And yes, that is actually something being brought forth by someone.
I made the mistake of clicking on the hashtag and was flooded by thousand of posts of people standing strong in their decisions and encouraging other to share their stories, so that abortion is no longer condemned by anyone. And for weeks now I have been haunted by their words and wrestling with wanting to stand firm against it.
Until this morning. I can't do it anymore. This morning I was faced with the reality that I had let my guard down, and allowed hope to take form. Hope that has been growing over 7 weeks wrestling with the possibility that I might be pregnant. With each passing week, I started to think of what joy would be for our families if this was actually happening. Starting to think that maybe my quest for health and losing weight might have changed things. And yet this morning, I was once again faced with the reality that right now, God's timing is not of my own.
And though this reality hurts, I have been reminded two times this week of the Story of Hannah. Who wept before the Lord asking to be blessed with a child. And keeping her promise and giving her beloved child Back to the Lord as a servant. My Timing is not God's timing. This year God has shown me that He will continue to break us down and remold us. I am not sure how much more I need to be stripped but that is between me and the Lord. I am not posting this in efforts to gain empathy or to make people feel bad. I am posting to be real.
For now I celebrate with those who are announcing their pregnancies! I take such joy in pictures of families growing and children everywhere being born and growing up. I will never, ever want to take that joy away from anyone , simply because God's timing is not my own.
BUT to those who are standing strong behind narcissistic comments of Celebrating your right to have an abortion, to you, I have a different thought. Just because you are old enough and society has given you the "right" to sleep with anyone you want , doesn't mean you have the "right" to terminate the consequence that have inconvenienced you. If you are responsible enough to have sex, then you are responsible enough to raise a child. This is not religion, this is common sense.
Before you start to stand strong behind your American Right to liberty and freedom I ask you to stop and think.
Think about the Thousands of families our there that are unable to get Pregnant. Those families out there that for one reason or another wont be able to have that joy. We would give anything for that tiny life you are about to throw away.
Think about the cries of women I know who loose their babies from miscarriage. I have so many friends who both mourn in silent or share with others their gut wrenching sorrows of still borns or early pregnancies that never came to term.
Think about the families I know who would give ANYTHING to be able to chosen as an adoptive family, but are either not picked, or can not afford the fees of international adoption.
Think about the Men and women who for some reason or another are not married. Due to not being married, they choose to wait for God's timing. But they would give ANYTHING to be in the place that they could still be a mother or a father.
Think about the families I do know that were raped. Raped and still decided to bring the child into the world. That Child who was loved ( by both mother and non biological father) and who the Lord blessed beyond all words and is living and thriving.
Before you start to stand on the rights of your decisions from the consequences of your life choices, think about the life and lives you are already affecting. And if you choose to make that choice because our country currently says you can decide to choose, keep your hashtags to yourself.
Because those words are heart wrenching and like salt in our very open and painful wounds.
